She hasn’t gone anywhere, but I feel like I miss my daughter.
The first 2 years of her life were mostly just me and her having fun and getting to know each other. We went to swimming classes, dance classes, music clubs and everywhere I went, she was with me. Our bond was crazy strong! And we would always have a great time, laughing and just generally being happy.
All of that changed the day her baby brother was born.
I know that this might sound like he is some sort of burden. But that is absolutely not what I am trying to say. We all love him to pieces and he has brought an immeasurable amount of joy to our family. I would never want to be without him.
I can see that sometimes my daughter just wants my full attention and it makes me so sad that a lot of the time, I can’t give it to her. I miss the days when I could look at her beautiful face all day, carry her when she wanted to be carried and play with her for as long as she wanted to play. I always explain to her why I can’t do what she wants me to do all of the time and I try to include her with baby as much as possible. I just hope she understands and knows that I love her just the same as before.
I’m so grateful for the 2 years that I got to spend with just her, she is an absolute joy to be around. I hope that we will get to spend some quality time together again soon. As for my baby boy, it’s taken a little longer to get to know him, he’ll never be an only child and for now there will rarely be occasions when it is just me and him. But he’ll be OK, because he has an amazing big sister who loves him and will teach him everything she knows.
I miss having one child but I love having two. Sometimes I just wish there were two of me so that neither of them would ever have wait for a cuddle or a hand to hold.