Gone but never, ever forgotten.

I wrote this and then realised that some people might not know what I’m talking about –  My close friend Karolina passed away suddenly this week, leaving behind her wonderful husband and three gorgeous children. Safina 5, Toby 3 and Lily who is 4 months old today.


There is so much that I want to say. But I don’t think any words can describe how I feel, how we all feel. You made a wonderful impression on everyone who was lucky enough to meet you.

My darling friend Karolina, you lit up my life. Every moment with you was special, happy, positive and flippin’ hilarious. Even through some very difficult times in your life you still smiled that dazzling, contagious smile.


At work, when everyone else would complain about stupid things like… having to work. You would just embrace every task, every person and make every situation the best it could be. Friendly, warm and welcoming – I wish I could be more like you.

When you came to work with me in the cash office, is when we really bonded. Playing Kanye West and Beyoncé to your bump in an attempt to find out the gender, and teaching me a new polish word everyday. The funniest time was when your bump was so big that you couldn’t see that your dress was actually above your stockings!

At home, you made me feel like family. My children were your children and yours were mine. They still are. We bathed them together, fed them together. If my little girl needed changing, you wouldn’t tell me, you would just change her yourself.

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You were an INSPIRATIONAL mother. So selfless. You lived for your children. And I can honestly say I’ve never met anyone who idolised their children like you did. I can’t think of anybody who put as much effort into creating the most beautiful memories and experiences with their children. Not even my own mother! Not even me.

You taught me so much about being a parent. Having two young children is tricky but I get through it because of the things you taught me. And you weren’t afraid to give me the odd stern word if I needed it. (Dare I complain about co-sleeping again!)

Just a few nights ago my daughter woke up crying. I was knackered, I really just wanted to tell her to be quiet and close the door. But I thought “what would Karolina do?” And of course I ended up hanging off the edge of her bed cuddling her until she fell asleep.

I have countless wonderful memories with you and your beautiful little family. And I promise you that there will be more. We will still go for half birthday picnics in the sun. We will still take pictures by the flowers. And I will do whatever I can to make your babies happy because that’s all you ever wanted for them.


I love you Karolina. Thank you for being my friend. And although I’m devastated that you were taken away so suddenly; I am so grateful to have had you in my life. I’ll try not to cry anymore and try instead to smile as you always did. May your beautiful soul rest in peace.          xxx

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81 thoughts on “Gone but never, ever forgotten.

  1. I’m so sorry for your loss, she does indeed sound like a perfect friend and an amazing mother, it must be so difficult for all of you. Sending a big hug x

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  2. Such a heartbreaking read. I am so very sorry for your loss; she looks beautiful and radiant. What a special person she must have been. #TwinklyTuesday

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  3. So sorry for your loss. And for the young family that she left behind too. They must be devastated, as you must be too. How do you process this? I’m really sorry you lost your beautiful friend, and that her babies lost her dear mum. It’s too hard to think about. Be strong #PostsFromTheHeart

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  4. A truly tragic post from the heart. I am so sorry to hear this sad news, it is devastating for children so young to lose their mother. It is wonderful that you are determined to keep her memory strong and to be an ongoing support for her family. #PostsFromTheHeart

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  5. Got here from #postsfromtheheart and I’m really happy I dropped by. I am very sorry for your loss. This is a wonderfully written piece that I bet she’s rereading again and again from Heaven above while looking in on her family from time to time. We read about angels all the time but never actually get to meet them. I’m very happy to read of your real life angel.

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  6. I am so sorry to hear about your friend passing away. I know what it’s like to lose a friend suddenly, it’s something that stays with you forever. Your friend sounds a lovely person, an inspiration in many ways. Sending you love at this difficult time. #fromtheheart

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  7. What terrible news.This post is beautiful and i am sure she would be honoured that you have written it for her. Im not sure why sometimes such wonderful people are taken from us so early in their lives but i am sure she is watching over you as well as her family. Thank you for sharing #PostsFromTheHeart

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  8. This is really sad to read, and I’m really sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what her family and children must be going through. I loved reading your post, it was a lovely tribute to Karolina. Thanks for linking up at #fortheloveofBLOG. Claire x

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  9. I’m so sorry to hear you lost such a wonderful friend – she sounds like a fantastic lady. i’m sure you’ll make sure her spirit lives on in her children. Lots of love xxx #fortheloveofBLOG

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  10. What an utterly beautiful piece. I am both honoured and humbled to have sat here and read it, words really can’t express or say enough. Sending love to you, your children and your friend’s family in what must be an unimaginably difficult time. Thank you so much for sharing her memory with us at #PostsFromTheHeart

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  11. What a beautiful post and I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. Her memory will always live on and it’s brilliant you’re keeping her spirit alive and doing things in her honour. Thank you for sharing and for making me think. #PostsFromTheHeart

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  12. Oh lovely, I am so sorry for your and her families loss. It must be a terrible shock to you all. What a lovely tribute you’ve written though for her, truly something to honour someone who clearly had a huge impact on your life. Hopefully, one day her children will be able to read this and see what a great person their mum was. #postsfromtheheart

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  13. so heartbreaking, I know that loss and it is so hard to understand and cope with. Her poor children too, so sad, sending hugs beautiful #PostsFromTheHeart.

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  14. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s very hard to lose someone who means so much to you but it seems you have so many wonderful memories. Karolina sounds like a wonderful women, my thoughts go out to all who love her. I really hope the lovely memories you all hold so dear will help get you through this difficult time. All the best xx

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